5/25/05 – Season of the Suns…
Right now in the valley there are two things making headlines: The sun, and The Suns.6/12/05 – Ironic…
Lately I’ve been as busy as a three legged cat trying to bury a turd on a frozen lake why being chased by wolves. This week I've worked for people who get to enjoy their 4th of July. It's only fair since I live every other day like it were a holiday. the guy that replaced me at KFYI when I quit two years ago is on vacation. Who better to replace him than the original? I had gotten used to working nights and waking up late. Then this week I had to wake up at 3:30am every day for the morning drive shift. Since I was used to staying up late I had a hard time getting to bed before 11:00pm any night. Knowing that I had to wake up only a few hours later made me feel like I had to rush sleep. This gave me anxiety and therefore kept me up longer. Ironic, ain’t it?
Another irony has been bugging me lately. When I live in Arizona, I have the money, transportation and time to date girls and do things. When I live in Hawaii, I have the girls to date. When in Arizona, all I want is the right girl to date. In Hawaii, I can find the girls a plenty, but I don't have the means to do anything with them. How's that for a catch 22?
In Guam I have neither the means nor the women, so I guess I got the worst of both worlds.
7/11/05 – Gearing Up To Get Out…
I'm sure you have noticed (or should have) that I have not been posting much lately. That is because I have had an out of town guest. Anna has been here for a few days so far.8/22/05 – The Fairer Sex…
In my honest opinion, they are the much more fair. In light of my current public image, I thought it was time to show a side of me that few see on this blog. I want to preempt this post with a rebuttal before you even have a chance to start. This may seem like I am only saying this to look good. I am not "kissing up". This is not a last ditch effort to woe some girl via the internet. I am doing this post because I am aware that I have done many posts in the past that say only negative things about women and I think it's only fair and balanced of me to offer a different point of view. If you were so willing to believe that I was being honest when I was saying things less than favorable about women then I ask you will be equally willing to believe me when I compliment them as well.
First I would like to say that I have no problem with women. I have a confession to make: I am half woman. That's right. 50% in fact. You see, my mother was a woman. Even though I'm half woman I do take after my father physically. So, I do have differences from those who take after their mother. But, I feel that I still have enough authority to speak on the subject.
To add further credibility, I will quote someone that on one can dispute: God. God first made man. That man was in the garden and had his orders to not eat of the tree. It's no clear how long he was there pre-woman, but I get impression in chapter 3 of the book of Moses that it was at least long enough to name animals and know that something was missing. God then made woman. This was an important build. This isn't some dodo bird, dinosaur, or unicorn that God will let go extinct. She is so important that both humans had to leave the garden together - the best paradise, heaven on Earth. Adam understood that he must take the forbidden fruit like she did so that they could be together, Eden or not. I like to think that when I find my wife I'd be willing to give up Eden for her.
I still mean every letter of that last post. I wish I had finished it.
10/05/05 – New Routine…
I have learned that routines are not all bad things. They can go either way. I have also learned from experience that a routine is what I need
I wanted to make sure that I was actually sticking to this routine before I published it and then didn't actually do it...well, since it was never published you can imagine how that new routine worked out for me.
11/10/05 – Note To Self…
Hey six year old Jared,
I hear that you are moving. I know you liked your old house and that cool tree house. Don't worry. Mesa is a good. But let me warn you of some things.
First, know that you will be very unpopular. At times you will wonder what happed to you. You will wonder why you can't feel a part of any group like you did before since you still feel like you are just being you. Do not worry too much about it.
Second, this move is good for you. You will learn more through trials than complacency. Your family will be poor for a few years more. Your sisters will go through some trials and you will watch it happen. Learn from it. Don't worry about them; they will end up taking the right turns.
Good luck with your new home and school. Oh, and be on the look out for a neighbor about your age named John. He will be the best childhood friend you will ever have. He'll need you as much as you need him.
Jared.
Hello Jared at Eight,
You are getting baptized soon. You don't fully understand everything going on with baptism. You will likely be more impressed with the toy motorcycle your aunt will give you than the Holy Ghost your father gives you. In time you will understand the event better. What matters now is that you know it's right. Don't forget that.
You might also try to remember the feeling of being totally clean and the desire to keep it that way. You will be back to yelling at your sisters or talking back to your dad in a few days. That happens, but at least try to keep that down to a minimum, ok?
Sorry that Katie moved. I know that you liked her. Take it from me. She was not the kind of girl that you would want to end up staying with. Years later you will see her again at the bank and wonder why you thought you loved her so much. Believe it or not, this will be one of the easiest relationships to let go of.
Keep trying to get along at school. It is hard now. You are not happy with anything about school, I know. If you try being less sarcastic and insulting to the people who pick on you, they might loose interest in you. Either way, your social skills will gradually improve as will your grades. You are going to hear this a lot in life, but take it from me. Just be patient.
Jared.
This was written the day before my 26th birthday. I was feeling a bit depressed then, as I always do on my birthday. I never finished it because I knew where it was going; a pity party. It was likely going to have a very sad ending, I try to avoid that on this blog. I would like to finish it sometime, however. It would be interesting to see what I would tell myself through the ages.
11/16/05 – 2 ¾ - 0…
Once again, I was printed in the school news paper, the Ke Alaka'i. Once again they edited the copy that I turned in. This time, however, they butchered my article.
There you have it. Almost a year of unpublished thoughts, desires and anxieties. In case you are wondering (which you aren't), 2006 already has it's fair share of drafts that will rear their heads next year.
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